CHAPTER 2:
For my initial appointment, I chose to wear my charming, short-hemmed floral dress suitable for spring, along with a g-string, a black bra, and casual flat black shoes.
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A formal agreement was established in writing. I will provide an approximation instead of an exact replica. Here some of the main items that were specified in the agreement, among many others:
- The participant is required to follow any given instructions.
- The participant must comply with all orders without the chance for challenge or objection.
- The participant is expected to always tell the truth.
- The participant is required to execute any directive promptly and swiftly without delay.
- The participant must address Mr. Lux as "The Master."
- Personal belongings are not allowed within the clinic premises; no cellphones, jewelry, or watches are permitted. The participant's car keys are the only item allowed to be brought inside. Upon entry, the participant must place them on the entrance table.
- Intercourse is forbidden for the duration of the program.
- The participant is obligated to follow instructions at all times, including during the intervals between sessions.
- Questioning is not allowed at any time.
- The participant is not permitted to speak unless specifically requested.
- The participant is to seek discipline if a mistake is made.
- When the participant is on her period, the clinic requires immediate notification, and scheduled sessions will be postponed.
- The participant is responsible for preventing pregnancy.
- Grooming is a prerequisite for each session.
- The participant is instructed to wear the designated clothing and no other items.
Approximately 100 items were encompassed within the agreement.
The program was priced at $2,000. Additionally, the agreement included a provision that specified a 'safe word', which was: "LUX, I’M OUT".
This indicated that at any point during the therapeutic process, I had the right to utter those words, resulting in the immediate cessation of treatment.
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Following the tour, we returned to the location of the couch, where he instructed, “Monica, I would like you to take a seat and spread your legs.”
I found this request to be rather unusual. The atmosphere around me didn’t feel entirely therapeutic, yet I perceived Mr. Lux as either a physician or a therapist.
Additionally, I was now bound by contract to follow his instructions.
As I opened my legs, he raised his voice, saying, “Monica, you are to refer to me as ‘Master.’ You must respond to every command I issue with ‘Yes, Master,’ do you understand?”
With my legs apart, a bashful smile on my face and my cheeks flushed, I replied, “Yes, Master.”
I always had an aversion to being spoken to in an elevated tone. I made a mistake; he pointed out an error. I almost cried.
I was quite upset about that particular mistake, as we just reviewed the rules and guidelines.
His head shook from side to side in disagreement, and he stated, “Monica, this is not going to work.”
His eyes fell to the lower part of my spring flower dress while I sat with my legs apart. Some pubic hair was visible around my g-string.
“Monica, you must adhere to the fundamental rules! Your pubic area needs to be shaved before each session. You are prohibited from wearing any underwear or a bra.”
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Why do I still have the desire to pursue this? I must admit, it was indeed a remarkably stimulating experience.